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Where in the World Have I Been?

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*Dusts off personal blog*

I know I have gravely neglected this little blog. I have had a lot of ups and downs in my life, and it may take a few parts of these to sum it all up, but I will do my best as I sit in this little old house at my laptop and listen to a live stream.

 

 

 

My Faith

It is still in tact. My faith in God is fully in tact. However, after this last election cycle, my faith in humanity to think for themselves, from I have observed on the internet, has gone the way of the Dodo. I am sorry, but I have always been one to fact check until I annoy people, but when you blindly believe everything you see and hear, it makes one a mindless sheep. With the blatant twisting of facts on both sides of the fence, we need to think critically and question everything, and I really don’t see much of that happening.

Why I Am Not on Facebook…

I just can’t anymore. I may post on my fanpage, but not on my main one. I would be spending most of my time annoying people with statistics and facts to refute the constant bombardment of inaccuracies in articles being posted, and I don’t want to do that to anyone. So, I will not be posting or reading anything on FB for a while.

I am on YouTube, Twitter, Minds, and Gab

Why? I am posting my commentary and reporting news on YouTube. Yes, I said news. I find it funny. I spent much of my youth avoiding news, and now I am looking up stories, checking the facts, and reporting on what is happening. I got tired of “news” outlets interjecting their opinions and twisting facts to fit a narrative, but that’s another post for another day.

We are trying to stay above water.

We are scrimping, saving and struggling to keep this little house going until we can find a better place to live. This house is a roof, but not much else. We, Buddy and I, look ever forward, learning by our mistakes to stand and stay on our feet.

 

Well, that’s it for now.

Anissa

Twitter: https://twitter.com/MadWomanMuses

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TAADAA!!! There is a new blog in town!

Yup, now the url matches the title.  madwomanmuses.wordpress.com
Yup, now the url matches the title. madwomanmuses.wordpress.com

Hello, everyone!  It’s official.  Though I have not the funds to pay for the url proper, I created another blog for my writing.  Everything here has just been moved there, and this one will be solely for personal things and my walks with God.

I figured that would be more appropriate.  I am also in the process of moving things around from my craft blog to my writing blog that pertains to herbals and natural health.  Come follow my book writing progress and read the short stories I post over there.

Musings of a Mad Woman

God bless, Anissa

Posted in General, Walks With God

Blowing the dust off of this thing,

and getting right back into it.

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Getting back to it.

 

Yes, I have been remiss, very remiss in my writings on this blog.  I even said that I was going to merge this one with my business one, but after much thought and prayer, I changed my mind, “dusted off” the blog, and now I am going to continue writing my adventures on this one.  I have been homeless for most of the hiatus, but now, I am living with a friend in Louisiana, where I am desperately trying to find work, and also feverishly trying to get my business to stand on its own.  Neither has been easy with all the moving around, but , with God’s grace, and the love of my beloved, I have muddled through.

Continue reading “Blowing the dust off of this thing,”

Posted in General, Walks With God

You learn a lot…

As I sit here and type, the thoughts that are running through my head are taking shape.  There are a lot of things that we learn as we take the journey through life.  Some of these things are funny, some ironic, and others are very profound.  Often, we don’t even know we are learning them until we look back on our lives and see how far we’ve come with the years God has blessed us with having.  

As small children, we were born with unconditional love.  The type of love God wants us to have for all of our fellow brothers and sisters.  We are color blind, and know only that the kid across the street loves to play as much as we do.  We don’t care that they sound funny, have a limp, or that they are a different color.  They are a playmate, a friend.  Then, we begin to listen to our parents as they shape the way we think and behave.  

For me, growing up wasn’t hard.  I wasn’t spoiled as some people would think an only child would.  I was given things, when I earned them.  I was punished when I missed stepped and tested my parents.  I learned that parents can only be pushed so far, and that disrespect was punished.  I did have chores put on me, and I learned that doing them had their own reward.  My journey in earning and saving money had begun.  Yes, I got upset when they told me no to something that was beyond my reach financially, but I soon got over it, and found a way to obtain it.  

School taught me that children can be cruel.  Twelve years of ridicule, being laughed at, and made fun of made me strong.  I learned that it didn’t matter what they said, only what I believed.  Looking back, I am amazed that I didn’t try to kill myself.  There were plenty of times I felt the world would be better off without me.  I learned to hate those that constantly made fun of me, and wished that school would end so I didn’t have to keep going back to that hell.  I still have scars for those twelve years.  Only now, they are badges of honor.  I use them to teach others how to ignore the bullies, and listen to God’s words.  I wouldn’t go through that again if I had the chance.  Once was definitely enough.  I hated school.  Can you blame me?  

I got pregnant soon after I graduated.  I called the next few years my “rebel without a clue” years.  I ran off with the biological father of my what was soon-to-be son.  I found out that things could be a lot worse.  Not knowing whether the roof that was over my head today would be there tomorrow or whether there would be enough food for everyone sobered me up to the fact that I really had nothing to complain about when it came to my parents.  I was kicked out of the apartment when I was eight months pregnant, and I went back home.  

My mother often thought that I came home as a last resort, but I was thinking of coming home the whole time I was away.  I just didn’t know if they would have me after I left.  I knew that I had hurt them.  I was scared to ask if I could come back home.  I don’t know why, but I was nervous that they would be too hurt to take me back.  I learned otherwise.  Your parents will always take you back.  It may different, and you may have to adjust to new a feeling, but they will always welcome you home.  

Then, I learned the most important lesson of all through all my life.  God is always with you.  He is patient as he waits for you to come home.  He is always speaking to you, though you do not always listen.  He loves you unconditionally, giving everything to make sure you feel loved.  He forgives you your transgressions.  He knows that you need to stretch your wings and travel your own path before you realize the road you are travelling will lead back to Him.  He lifts you up when you feel as if you are falling, and strengthens you when you feel weak.  He shows you how strong and beautiful you are at those moments when you feel unimportant, ugly, and feel like giving up.  He teaches you strength, love, compassion, patience, and generosity.  You need only to stop and listen with your soul and heart.  

Until next time, God Bless you all.

Posted in General, Personal

Of Mothers and Visits…

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Yep, they live there now.

My parents are down from Minnesota this past week.  They are leaving tomorrow.  You see, they have been living up there for about seven years.  They had to move up there in order for my dad to keep his job with Northwest Airlines (who is no more).  They had a choice of locations, and the chose Minnesota.  

Do I wish they could come back?  Yes.  Will they ever be able to come back?  No.  Their finances will not allow it.  Even if they could, mom said she wasn’t going to go backwards.  She has her heart set on Alaska, for some reason.  

If their moving has taught me anything, it’s that -no matter how much you think your parents can get on your nerves when you’re grown, you miss them like crazy when you can’t drive for half an hour to visit them.  The first year was pure hell.  Mother’s Day and Father’s Day were rough beyond belief.  My husband and I hadn’t been married long, and he was chalking all of it up to PMS (Don’t worry.  He has since gotten better.  If fact, I feel God has blessed me with a kind and understanding man.)  I tried to convincing myself after Father’s Day that I could handle this.  I told myself that I was stronger than what I was acting.  I actually thought I had it licked.

Then Came Thanksgiving…

There I was, getting the car to head to my mother-in-law’s house for Thanksgiving dinner.  No sooner did I get in the car then I fell apart.  I started crying. All I could think of was how I couldn’t see my parents for dinner, and how they wouldn’t be there.  I fell apart again when I got to my in-law’s house.  My hubby’s mom was wonderful.  It’s amazing how God works.  Here I am depressed and missing my parents without measure, and here is my mother-in-law hugging me and comforting me because she understood.   I am truly blessed to have such an amazing family in my in-laws… I should say second family.  They don’t feel like in-laws after all.  That title doesn’t suit them.

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It’s Wednesday…

Funny, thought.  It doesn’t “feel” like a Wednesday.  This is the first week of my new schedule (They added a day to my work week. Long story.), and I feel like this should be the last day of the week that I am working.  Instead, it is the second.  Oh, I futzed around with my business site yesterday, trying to figure out how the online classroom works.  I got most of it to work. I am still arguing (If that is what you can call it.) with the application so that people can register themselves.  So far, all they can do is log in.  I have faith that I will figure it out though.

My son visited me yesterday as well.  He is getting ready for Dragon Con.  For those of you who are not familiar, it is this HUGE sci-fi. comic book, and roleplaying convention held every year here in GA.  For four days people walk around in an array interesting (and sometimes disturbing) costumes.  It is quite an experience.  I have gone a couple of times, but we don’t have the money to attend anymore.  If we ever get to that point again, I will be sure to take pictures and share them with you.

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I Had the Crud… (TMI Alert) and rants of a retail employee…

That is what I call the flu.  I still have the remnants of it.  I have the sniffles and the weird colored junk when I blow my nose.  This sucks.

First day, I was at work, the gas station, not the party store.  I left early because I knew I was running a fever.  Sue me.  I am the kind of person that likes to keep my germs to myself.  So, there went a little out that paycheck.  Then I had to call-in Friday and Saturday.  There went that freakin paycheck (That two out of the three days that I was scheduled at the party store, btw.)  Good thing they called my hubby in to work at his job.  Then I had to call in Sunday.  Another day down the toilet.  Then Monday came, and my voice was unintelligible. *sigh*  Tuesday was a usual day off from both jobs.  I was still feeling like crap, but much better than the week before.  Wednesday came again, and I was well enough to go to work (gas station).  Thursday, party store hell, three days before Halloween, and I am stuck in purgatory (On the register).  I hate the register.  I have learned to curb my hatred of it at work.  It got me written up last year.  We didn’t get out of the store until after midnight.  It was a disaster, and we were short staffed.

Begin Rant…

What ever happened to people picking up after themselves?!?!?  When did this turn into a society of pigs?!?!?  I mean really!  IF you don’t want it, PUT IT BACK WHERE YOU GOT THE DAMN THING!  WE ARE NOT HIRED TO BE YOUR PARENTS AND CLEAN UP AFTER YOU!  I AM TALKING TO THE GROWN-UPS!  THE ADULTS THAT KNOW BETTER!  MY GOSH, WE ARE PAID TO HELP YOU FIND WHAT YOU ARE LOOKING FOR SO THAT YOU LEAVE THE STORE HAPPY!  WE ARE NOT PAID TO BE YOUR FREAKING PARENTS AND CLEAN YOUR MESSES! WHAT KIND OF EXAMPLE ARE THE PARENTS OF THIS WORLD SETTING IF YOU JUST PUT THE SHIT DOWN WHERE EVER YOU FEEL LIKE IT INSTEAD OF WHERE IT FREAK’ GOES WHEN YOU  CHANGE YOUR MIND?

CLEAN UP AFTER YOURSELF!!!

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