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Doubts and Progress…


Here I am, back at the beginning. I never thought I would have to back-track in order to move forward, but sometimes it is required. I am back working at Party City after 7 years. Halloween is a busy time for the company, and I am doing my best to make an impression and make some money to further my other projects.

Buddy, my loving husband, once again has to fight to get  job in order to get his license back in order. Two weeks after he got his license, they suspended it, AGAIN. He was paying his child support. They took it out of his check every week, but I guess that wasn’t enough to keep them from yanking it. It’s getting ridiculous.

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ADD, Depression, and Hubby on the Road

Anissa Mathias Rodriguez

Finally having gotten everything sorted out, for the time being, Hubby is back driving for Schneider. He will be gone ten days at a stretch and home for one week. I cannot be in the truck with him for six months. It was hard falling asleep without him the first night, but his wake-up call at 6:30 to tell me, “Good morning, Beautiful.” made my morning. You see, he says that every morning, and I can’t help but smile, and before coffee, which usually is a chore.

Yesterday was the first day without him, and between the loneliness, ADD, and depression trying to creep back in, I was just mindlessly scrolling through Facebook trying to find the motivation to do writing assignments. I had two, and I only had the wherewithal to complete one. I have the second one today. I know I will get into a routine again, but it’s hard waking up and not finding him here.

There are advantages to this, however. It gives me time to really plan all of my projects, marketing, and get more exposure for my business. It also gives me the chance to look for apartments so that we can move out of his sister’s place, and finally set up a proper office/workshop. Sitting on my bed to type posts and work on my computer has been making my back rebel, completely. I need a proper office.

It also gives me time to think. I believe, after the six months are up, I will go on the road with him for those ten days, just to have a mini-vacation.  I will need it by then, but I won’t be able to go with him full-time. I am planning on everything being in full swing by then, and being on the road full time won’t work. He agrees with me. We wants me to be happy and follow my dreams, and want him to be happy, too, and if that means him driving a truck and waking up every morning at 6:30 to say, “Good Morning, Beautiful,” I can handle that.

Until next time, God bless you all.