Did You Ask God for Forgiveness?

Are you still doing that thing you asked for forgiveness for?

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Forgiveness, a trait all of us should practice, both giving and asking, but what happens when “I’m sorry” becomes a token phrase, and not words spoken with sincerity?  What happens when “Please, forgive me.” becomes the go-to phrase, but you are guilty for doing the very thing you apologized for doing?  Are they in their rights not to forgive you?  

Hebrews 6:4-5 4 As for those who were once brought into the light and tasted the gift from heaven, and received a share of the Holy Spirit  5 and tasted the goodness of God’s message and the powers of the world to come…

In Hebrews, we have the eternal question answered, but on a grand scale.  His children have received the many blessings from Him through Christ, and have tasted what it is to be Children of God.  They have received His grace, wisdom, and love, but, under the many pressures of society not fully accepting Christianity, have fallen victim to peer pressure.

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The Incredible Shrinking Momma!

Another two pounds gone?  196lbs I am loving the shrinking me.  

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I am thinking of doing to Zumba twice a week next week.  I have done the class a couple of times in the past before I got lazy and stopped.  I love dancing, and this class feels like an hour long dance party.  It’s fun, fast-paced and you can really get into it.  

 

 

 

 

 

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The Prodigal Son Returns…

 

 

 

My son, Paul.

…at least for a little while.  You see, his friends ousted him over the weekend while he was spending it with us.  He didn’t have a clue what had happened until he called them to ask if they could come and get him.  Now, he feels as if his two closest friends aren’t truly his friends.  

Maybe, as a mother, I want to believe that he has changed for the better.  He is studying to get this GED, and he is looking for job opportunities.  He says that he wants to save up money to move to MN to be with his grandparents and friends up there who support him.  (I am referring more to his MN friends.)  I am willing to give him the benefit of the doubt that he is changing and look at his actions objectively and fairly.  All this, despite his past transgressions.  I guess that is the mother in me.

I am always willing to see the good in him, but I am not so blind as to not notice any bad in him.  We all have to potential to be either.  We all just have to choose our fate in that regard.  God has blessed me with a good heart to love and care for my son, and a good mind to see the good and the improvements that he still has yet to do, but I am willing to be patient and use gentility to guide him, now that he is twenty.  A cudgel will not work, though sometimes I wish I could reach inside his mind and pick out the lazy parts. *shrugs*  Such is life.  

It is amazing what God places in our path to either deal with or step away from, not to be bothered for one reason or another.  The wisdom we must have is to discern which is which.  I do have a friend that told me to cut all ties with my son, and have nothing to do with him, but I am not that kind of person.  I have let him back into my life, and I pray that he is on the right path this time.

Until next time, God Bless. 

 

Tuesday weigh-in…

I did it again.  I am now 198 pounds, and I have joined a group on Spark People called MOMMY to WOWWY.  I am going to try to track my food and my exercise to see how I am doing, and also to see if, by paying attention to my foods, I can drop at least three pounds a week.  I know.  I am happy with two, but I can be rather impatient when I expecting results.  heh.  Until next time, God Bless.

A Mother’s Lament

My 20-yr-old.
He was about 17 in
this picture.

This is my son.  He is no longer living with us, and though I know it was his disrespect that ultimately drove me to to take the very roof from over his head at 18, I still, on occasion, look back and try to see what I could have done differently to avoid it altogether. I have been told that it was not my fault, and that he made his choices.  I know this, but somehow, it still nags me.  

I will not go into details as to what happened. (I know that the internet is not private.)  All I will say is that an ultimately unforgivable show of disrespect caused me to make the hardest decision of a mother’s life, expelling my son from his home.  The disrespect on his behalf had been building for some time, and I had been letting it slide, but not without argument and protest, but I could no longer allow it.  It had gotten to a point where I just could not put up with it any longer.  

It hurt my heart that day, to oust him.  Everyday after, I was hoping he would come to his senses, but he is still adrift on a sea of uncertainty.  He may have a bit of direction now, but I can’t help but think from time to time, that there could have been something I could have done to prevent it.  I know it was his choice to be rebellious, and one thing lead to another, but as a mother, I cannot help but mentally tick off a list to see if there was anything I missed or did wrong.  

He is very artistic and, on occasion, very poetic.  He is intelligent, and he can be wise, when he wishes.  He does visit and call from time to time.  This makes me happy.  He does make it a point to make family dinners, birthdays, and family holiday events.  This lets me know I did something right.  I was very scared when everything went down, that he would not even do that, being angry with me at casting him out.  What hurts me is seeing him living off the kindness of his friends and his friends parents.  I didn’t raise him this way, and it upsets me.  I have never given him living examples of laziness or living off of others.  I just don’t know.

Until next time, God Bless.

Keep it Simple, Spiritually…

Or Don’t look for Him too hard, you may not find Him.

The Book of Wisdom.
A lost book of the bible.

Wisdom 1:1-2 Love uprightness you who are rulers on earth, be properly disposed towards the Lord and seek Him in simplicity of heart; 2 for he will be found by those who do not put Him to the test, revealing himself to those who do not mistrust Him.

We all journey to look for God and Jesus Christ.  We search within ourselves, and try to find a comfortable place to commune with Him, whether it be a brick and mortar building, your backyard, or gathering with friends.  Some read the bible and pray, only to harbor frustration and do the things that God does not consider upright.  There are those who try to read too much into the lessons of the bible, hoping to glean that last little drop to answer questions so they can believe in Him as a “better” Christian.  

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Here we go… 10 pounds down…

…Here is another picture.

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Well, there you have it.  I promised that, every time I lost ten pounds, I would gather the courage to take pictures of me and put them on my blog.  I am now at 200 pounds.  I am still disgusted when my belly hits my thighs, and I have to suck in my gut when I zip up pants.  I hate looking at myself in the mirror, and yet, here I am snapping pictures of me on my journey to 145 pounds.  I am happy about the progress, but not the way I look, at present anyway.  

I have been eating more fruits and veggies, more protein, and pretty soon I will be getting rid of wheat, not gluten, just wheat.  I don’t eat that much of it anyway; so, I don’t think I will miss it.  At least I won’t miss it as much I miss my favorite cheeses and candies that are made with cow’s milk.  I have discovered that many of the things I used to eat contain whey, the very cow thing that my body rebels against.  Chewy granola, all Kashi crackers, and plenty of other things contain whey.  Oh well, this just means I have to find a way to make my snacks from scratch without whey.  Flour-free tortillas are becoming a hassle.  I am trying to make some without cornmeal as a substitute.  It’s not easy, but I am stubborn enough to keep trying.  

Until next time, God Bless.

Excuse me Ma’am, but Can You describe the thief?

“Well, um, he is there every morning, noon, and night.  He mocks me when I am having fun, and drags on endlessly when I am waiting to do something else.  He is always there, watching, waiting, and stealing my youth, my days and my years.”

“What is his name, ma’am?  Do you have an idea of what people call him?”

“Yes, TIME”

Give that back. I am not
ready to grow up!

 

Ephesians 5:15-16 15 So be very careful about the sort of lives you lead, like intelligent and not like senseless people.  16 Make the best of the present time, for is is a wicked age.

Time, it is ever elusive, yet ever present.  It seems to drag when your work is slow, but zip by when you are having fun and enjoying yourself.  It is also our enemy at times, running out before our work is done.  We use phrases like “I don’t have the time.” or “I ran out of time.” and even “Where did the time go?”  As we look around, we see thieves, and murderers and all sorts of people doing evil deeds,  but we are helpless to do anything but see the next victim on the news.  

We struggle with managing time in our own lives, balancing the spiritual with the mundane, the necessary with the recreational.  The balance is what we strive for, but often times is just out of reach.  There are always things at the end of the day that we didn’t get to do.  

In our spiritual lives, we often say that we are going to listen to God more, and we are going to pray to God more, and we are going to read the Bible more, but many of us fill our days with judgement, spite, anger, jealousy, and other negative aspects of our nature that take us away from God.  We forget to make the conscious effort to think before we act or speak, knowing that we do affects others, and takes from them a precious thing, time.  When others throw hateful words in our direction, time is also stolen from us, because we have to take time to heal, and some of us get lost in sadness and depression, and never find our way out.  

God wants us to be intelligent people, not the aimless masses who lash out and are hateful.  He wants us, through Him, to think about our actions, and, in so doing, walk the path that leads closer to him, and further from evil.  

Until Next time, God Bless.

Watch out!!! Your Heart Might be in Danger!!!

…Or Don’t let your heart be deceived.

Proverbs 4:23 More than all else, keep watch over your heart, since here are the wellsprings of life.

Okay, first, He tells us to love others as our neighbor, and to treat them as we would like to be treated, and now He is telling us to guard our hearts. What? Be suspicious? What happened to all that talk of love and caring?

God knows the evil that can lurk in the hearts of men. As his creations, he knows we are capable of doing both great and terrible deeds. He is also aware of what happens when those evil deeds are done to those who follow Him. Abuse, hatred, deception, adultery, they all hurt us, our hearts, and in turn, leave our spirit damaged, and afraid to live life as He wants us to live it. He wants us to be happy and live a life filled with blessings. He doesn’t want us so afraid of being hurt that we lock ourselves away in the proverbial tower where no one can hurt us.

Instead, He has given us the tools to discover deception in all its forms, but we must make the conscious effort to do so. This is why we must look, listen, and take heed of the signs all around us. We all want to receive love and help others, but we do want to be used and taken advantage of in the process.

Until next time, God Bless.

Happiness is its own reward.

…Or no richer person has walked the earth than one who is content with the Lord and what they possess. 

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1 Timothy 6:6 Religion, of course, does bring large profit, but only to those who are content with what they have.

Money, stocks, investment portfolios, millions or billions of dollars, what do they all have in common?  They are are cold, devoid of life, personality, caring, and they do not have the capacity to love, nourish, or uplift you.  Sure, we all need money to pay bills, treat ourselves, and, on occasion, live like the rich, but when you take away the home, the cars, all of your possessions, and even your job, are you truly happy?  Could you be truly happy? There are those who make less then you, and have smiles on their faces, and a bounce in their step.  They are content.  They have their family to love and guide them and the Heavenly Father to show them the way.  They may be striving for something better, but they don’t belly-ache about not having it now.  They are in the moment, happy and satisfied knowing that God will provide if they keep moving forward.  Are you?

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